By Cami Stephens | Assistant Editor
Smile. You must smile.
Don’t ever let your smile turn into a frown.
If you’re sad, don’t worry, a smile can help fix everything.
Did you forget to smile?
I try to smile in the mirror, but how do I smile when my brain only allows myself to frown.
I cannot force elation; my brain is too engulfed in devastating despair.
I know you get mad when I cannot smile, but I cannot fake it any longer.
I promise I’m not forgetting to smile, it doesn’t come naturally anymore.
If I show any emotion, somehow, I’m disregarded.
I must act happy and bubbly all day, every day.
If I’m not smiling, I must be insane, that’s what you said to me.
Oh no, I forgot to smile.
Whenever a tear rolls down my cheeks, you wipe it off, and force my cheeks to smile.
“Don’t be dramatic, you’ll get over it.”
You must be right. Let me try and smile.
Why does my smile only point downwards?
Whenever I become angry, I’m immediately poisoned with the idea that I’m crazy.
I forgot I can only be jolly.
I guess I’d rather be “crazy” than whatever your warped version of “jolly” is;
However, I guess I could try to smile just once more.
“Don’t take that medicine, it won’t help your sadness.”
I figured out that a smile is not a cure.
A smile is nothing without authentic joy. But still, I stare in the mirror waiting for my smiling frown to just be a smile.
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